Mikey Livingston (soundofmelodies)

I got home thursday and well at first I was a bit tired, but seeing lora made me extremly happy... I later spent the rest of the weekend basically cleaning everything and building a desk... finally monday rolled around and I got to start a new class (makeup) yeah it sounds a bit cheesy but I think its actually gonna be one of the most enjoyable classes at full sail. So far my past few days have been great I can't wait till tomorrow gets here so I can see how my advanced lighting class will be... I'm just happ : )

it's grand
it's like when you finally open up
and let nothing but love in
amazing stuff happens

i am hopelessly in love with a girl
a girl named lora
she is my life...
things make sense when she's around
I couldn't be any happier

so my mom has officially become
HER MOTHER

ahhh god this is not good....
yes she is my grandmother
but she is the most jealous
most envious
most emotional
bitch ever...

my mom
dislikes me
because i dont like being here
because i have a girlfriend
because when i spend time with her my train of thought is distracted
by text messages
she doesnt want to do things with me because i dont give her my full attention

i can't take it
i understand she misses me
but its like im here now
do something with me while you have a chance
instead of picking me apart and bitching
i should've known this would happen

she offered me a plane ticket back sooner
and even though in my heart i really want to go
i know that if i say yes it will piss her off more
so what do i do???

nothing
absolutely nothing

i cant try to make things work with her
cause it wont happen until she's ready
so i sit
and wait
like i've done all week
wait for her to make an attempt

im tired
home isnt home
i want my gf right now

i dont know how much more of this i can take
it just doesnt make sense
maybe i dissapoint her or something
but i just dont get it
im trying my best
i really am

i almost feel like i've made my decision about moving back here
and right now... my decision is no
in fact
hell no

i cant take it

love
one word
more meaning than any word

i've experienced this feeling in every way possible
friendly love
family love
and finally love... yeah LOVE

there's this girl
lora rodgers
the most beautiful girl in the world

until i met her i had no clue what love LOVE
really was
i never really understood the feeling that you get
when you say you would die for some one
she is everything to me
everything
my world is nothing without her

she has gone from being some other person
to being my other half
becoming those few parts of me that I need
to function to the fullest
my life isn't complete without her...

i've been at home on vacation for the past few days
and for me its been some of the hardest days of my life
i've been away from her...
i feel like im loosing myself
the things i thought were fun
are no longer
the places i used to enjoy aren't anymore
its like my senses are failing
its like the only thing that can help me is her
i have to text her, call her, and chat with her all the time
just to keep the oxygen flowing into my soul
i wish she was here with me
but i guess she can't

however i have a little over a week left
i'll be home soon baby
if you read this know that im in love with you more than anything
you complete me
make my world better
and make everything full and whole again
you are my world
you are my sunshine
you are my everything

CMI (computer's math internet) sucks...
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it
I'm tired of sitting in class hearing about
all the little bits and pieces that go into a PC
screw that give me my mac...

on another note
I'm in love
yup
love
strange but true
the details on how it happened are not really important
it just did
I feel like I can't breathe, taste, smell, or even live without the person
my life has been changed so much
it's good
it's good


On another note i'll be home in a few weeks
looks like i've got to get some christmas songs ready for church
Im going to make them amazing
they don't know yet what I have prepared up my sleeve

Also, i've been talking off and on to a guy who's in a worship band
he's really really cool
his knowledge is quite large and he's very uplifiting
I think we're gonna hang out
maybe write some songs
who knows
im excited

right now life is perfect

you ever just meet someone and are completely blown away with how amazing they are???
I just did, well not really, I met her about a month ago
But man... She's amazing

ramble ramble ramble
thats all anyone ever does in this class
blah blah blah

Learning is the best function of the mind
The ability to take something and use it later on is true beauty
However, right now my mind is closed
I can't take anything in
I'm at a complete blank
Nothing is being produced, and Nothing is coming In
Today is a tragedy...

Lets face it the name sounds boring
So, I'm sitting in class
Acting like I'm listening, but really what am I doing?
Typing away on Live Journal
OH WELL...
I hate this class
I wish there were some cute chicks so I could at least have
Something to stare at...
Well I guess there's one
But I need more
AHHHH
someon entertain me, please

So im sick
it sucks
I'm also sitting here watching my roommates group
for his presentation and they are totaly idiots
i want to just get up and yank that stinking Audioslave shirt off that kid
and punch him in the nose
then grab a knife
and stab them all
until my carpet turns blood red
there are 2 of them that are cool
mike and his buddy the skim board kid
but everyone else
i want to murder them
TONIGHT BLOOD WILL RUN!!!
Oh yes, there will be blood...

Hey john, where's the meat cleaver?

looks im finally gonna have something to do
thank god
I moved here almost a week ago and since then i've just been filling time
Today i have registration for my classes
sounds gay
but hey its better than nothing
Since i've gotten here i've been to downtown disney like 2 or 3 times
shopped a little bit pretty much every day
and hung out with the few people I know and my roomie
I guess if I think about it it really hasnt been that bad
But I'm just ready to start school, do something...

God nip tuck is seriously like my favorite show
I was looking for a TV show to like seriously follow
and I figured that would be it, and god I friggin love it...

Oh well, gotta go fill out some papers and eat some apple jacks

Should've Used Fed EX... haha omg

R.I.P. CROC MAN (Steve Irwin)
I'll have to admit I was a fan
you're great show will be missed,
along with the sequel to your totally cheeseball movie we'll never see....

I'm tired of having to pack
It sucks...
My mom yelled at me last night cause
I didn't have boxes to stick stuff In
So then I told her I was gonna go get some
and she yelled at me again
oh well, shes over it...
Im not, I thought the whole thing was stupid

Right now, I really like bluegrass and Irish folk
I dont know why
but I stayed up till like two in the morning finding
what i thought to be the best irish indie artist

Moving is gonna suck, I'm not ready to actually do it
I got 3 more days
It's to far, but too soon
Im anxious

Well back to my bluegrass irish indie music,
Someone better come with me in the next few days to
get some really big glasses (sun glasses)
if they dont I will have to do it by myself
and I'll be pissed...

its amazing how one moment can change everything
one moment

it started off rather crappy
the music for the morning at church went amazing
which ultimately made things better
then i got a call from tanya wanting to hang out
so i was like sure let me call you when im done eating
called her back, no answer
so after a while of sitting on my bed i got up
and just decided to drive
i dont know why but totally just drove to like murrels inlet
listening to all sorts of mellow depressing music
and the closer i got to murrels the more distressed i got
i think just being in that area just reminded me of some of the
things that happened with alie and how i guess im not really over them
and how even though she pretty much screwed me over
i still really do care, and feel somehow responsible for the whole thing
i shouldn't but i still do
so after that i headed to the mall
and tanya was there with michael ray, adam, and chad
which was who she said she was hanging out with
but apparently her phone had died from a long converstion with her ex
i ended up hanging out with them
and then later had to take tanya back to her car which was in like a kroger parking lot
we just kinda sat there for about a half hour and talked
and it just made me realize how much i miss her
she was for some reason someone i could tell anything
and there was some stuff that i just needed to vent out
and thank god for her...
hopefully i'll see her again before i leave
hopefully this week...
i dont want to loose her friendship

and, well, i know you're reading this (you know who you are)
and so im sorry for being short this morning, just forgive me
i wasnt really myself today
and for some reason i dont think i needed to be
but im sorry
love ya...

I think im gonna start making video journals... yeah like once a week how cool would that be
obviously im bored....

so... i was sick earlier today but i went and got my oil changed at the local scion dealer, and then went to church music practice which was amazingly fun because we had another guitar player and we did like a whole sweet instrumental thing for like 20 mins which is cool cause i've been waiting for ever to really play some sweet guitar... then i went to dinner with the fam and then my brother and i went to the mall to go to the movies and see snakes on a plane, while waiting i ran into my friend michael ray the lead singer for the band massacre of the umbilical cord (who recently got signed to magic bullet records and has a cd coming out the 12th of september) anyway we were talking and stuff and he had a couple copies of their cd thats about to come out so i got one from him and i'd have to say it's the best grind cd i've heard in awhile and im not just saying that cause they're my friends and i've seen their band 100 times but cause they really are talented, check em out myspace.com/motuc, they're the tightest sounding 3 piece ever they sound like the have 3 guitar players but its one dude with two cabs playing in standard tuning its awesome stuff... anyway i saw snakes on a plane and it was so bad and cheesy that it was awesome, it has to totally be my favorite movie this summer i cant wait for it to come out of dvd cause i will buy it and watch it over and over i loved it...

I woke up this morning with the worst headache
my eyes are like swollen
and i feel like im gonna throw up everywhere
its terrible, like the back of my head is even in pain, and thats the worst
my mom keeps yelling about this that and the other
mainly cause i didn't get up at 9 to go get my oil changed
but its not like i have to have an apoinment
i can just go anytime
does, anyone know why guys always have to apologize to make things better?
like even when they dont do anything worth apologizing for...
I just dont get it...
Im not gonna apologize though i'll just wait to hear it from her
im tired of having to do it
but anyway i just feel like crap all around...

god i missed her, we went to lunch i haven't truly seen her since last october
and its a real shame beacuse she was such a good person and a good friend
and it was a relationship that i totally ruined, however i called her the other
day because i've been trying to make amends with everyone and hang out
with everyone imaginable before i move to Orlando... But anyway we went
to lunch with some friends and then I went and helped her get some school
stuff and totally had a blast, i've missed her alot it was like old times and i
really can't wait to hang with her again... I've really missed her

the world is a stage
and I am just a player in this eloborate cast
we have no script
its all improv
i wait for orders
but come up lacking
so im forced to think for myself
will i be the revolution
the man who steals the show
or the voiceless
the one who acts as a backdrop
i say no to following
and yes to creativity
for i am the revolution
and i am not ashamed...